There are always
stories to tell, yarns to spin always words to share but, what if there
weren't? I can and do usually write something every day. I am drawn to the
paper like a moth to a flame, never doubting my ability to come up with
something uniquely compelling.
I believe sharing
words is as natural as a conversation with another person the only difference
is when you write you are having that conversation alone.I also think that when
I have a terrible day the stress I feel stops me from writing anything worthy
of sharing.Those are the times I write something dark and toss it after reading
it back to myself, usually.
I am not ashamed
to admit my life is kept in balance through the use of prescription drugs. I
suffered silently for years before I spoke to a VA doctor who enlightened me on
a couple of issues I had that could be greatly helped with the right balance of
medication.Its been a long time now and the meds are a part of my daily routine
that I take without even thinking about it.
Recently I somehow
let my prescription laps, and within a few days, I was back into the darkness I
had escaped from so long ago. Fear was the star of my show accompanied by
anxiety. I couldn’t face crowds of people or be surrounded by loud noises. I
didn’t want to be around anyone preferring my own company to that of anyone
even the people I loved the most.
During this time, I
wrote about the dark side, and many of those snippets ended up being published
in one of my books.After getting back on schedule with my meds I re-read those
pieces and was amazed at just how sinister and troubled my mind was. It's scary
seeing a side of the mind that presents itself when darkness is set free.
However, I am still
of mind that all people retain that dark side somewhere buried deep in their
mind and will never set it free. Is that a good thing? I don’t have an answer
for that, but in some way I think if I hadn't traveled to that world then maybe
I would have never written some of my best work.Someone once said that if not for
the darkness we would never be able to walk into the light. Wait, I wrote that.
Writing is a gift
that defines you as a dreamer, a storyteller, and someone not afraid to march
to a different drummer. Above all, to be a writer is someone who can call out
to the voices of the unknown inviting them to speak to the one who lets them be
heard.
Mike
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